In the Morning

Yesterday and again this morning, I found a song going through my head - "Lord in the morning, Thou shalt hear my voice ascending high.  To Thee do I direct my prayer, to Thee lift up mine eye."  The words are a loose translation of Psalms 5:3.  The International Standard Version puts it this way:

"LORD, in the morning you will hear my voice; in the morning I will pray to you, and I will watch for your answer."

I had a situation recently where I was unsure of God's leading.  That morning I had prayed for guidance for my day, and as we headed into a particular situation, my husband and I had again prayed for guidance. We got there and were presented with an unexpected opportunity - which I immediately accepted.  Later, I started worrying, as I too often do.  In that decision-making moment, I hadn't thought to shoot a prayer to God for guidance and to listen to His reply! I wished I had. And yet, the appearance of hesitation in that instance would probably not have been a good thing, and I HAD asked for guidance prior.  I didn't want to be one of those that asked with wavering faith (James 1:6)!  Was this a case of running ahead of God - or of wavering faith???

To me this morning, this verse from Psalms is reassurance.  "In the morning I will pray to you, and I will watch for your answer."  I had indeed prayed that morning, so I must trust I received the answer.

As I ponder things more, I realize that the reason for that hint of doubt was fear.  I have agreed to take on a REALLY big job, and it's easy to start to panic about whether or not I can really do it.  I KNOW I can trust God to "keep everything running right" (Ps 119:164), but I started to worry that I might have somehow stepped out of His will or run ahead so that He could not do so.  But I ASKED for His will to be done in my life that day and there was NO hint of doubt in my mind when the opportunity was presented.  If there had been, I would not have been so quick to accept.  I must trust that when I ask for God's will to be done in my life, it is not an empty prayer, but that He does indeed answer such a prayer! 

So, this morning, my voice once again ascends high.  Father, I once again ask that your will be done in my life today.  I choose to trust that you will ensure that it happens!  I choose to trust that you will make sure that everything keeps running right in my life.  Thank you for your love that can and will cast out my petty fears and fill me with trust in you.  Thank you that you have promised that you will continue the work you have begun in me - that you won't set me on a path and then abandon me when the going gets tough!  I am so grateful for your power and grace in my life!  Thank you, Father!